It is almost scary to start blogging again after such a long break, but whatever, I will just start posting again and pretend like nothing happened. *lalala* I really needed that break. I have been really busy. The 60 point semester is over, and hopefully I did well. I have a good feeling. I hope it lasts. Here are the pictures from the last week before the exam marathon.
Didn’t really see daylight much, this was about all the daylight I saw during exam season. Norway is so cold! And dark!
And then I drank a lot of coffee, and I tried to stay awake and productive. It worked, but my tolerance has been upped with +3 cups because of uni.
And this was mostly what I was starring at… every once in a while when I looked up from the laptop…
… I saw my white wall, and decided to hang up a couple of old pictures so I would have something to look at.
Last exam was linguistics, and god damn – I am having a love/hate relationship with linguistics. So much fun, but so much stuff to go through in such a small time. My favorite part have to be syntax, I loved drawing up all of those trees. Pitch accent was probably the hardest part, but at least I get the concept.
Then I get tired, and take pictures of random things like a lamp because I haven’t spoken to a soul in several days and haven’t seen anything excited happening around my desk where I have spent all my waking time for the past couple of days.
Oh hi! I am here again now. I will tell you all about last month a little later. Everything is perfect, I am working on learning how to relax again right now.
Hello lovelies! As you might have noticed, the update rate at sushibird has decreased drastically in the last month or so, and I wish I had some sort of exciting story about why, but to be honest, it is due to the fact that I have been super-busy with studying until my eyes fall out of my head. (I am currently attending a Norwegian university, and a regular course load is 30 points, however, I am super-sushibird, hence, I am taking on double load, 60 points! Go Go Go!) The fact that I might be a tad bit of a perfectionist *cough* means that the time I have had for fun things like internet has been almost zero. That being said, I have had such a grand time in Norway compared to what I thought I would! (The weather is not included in this calculation, mind you.) I have met so many nice people in the past months at uni, I’ve had good sake several times, I have had nachspiels with my mother, petted a cat repeatedly, enjoyed the wonderful Norwegian coffee almost every day and eaten fresh pasta and lots and lots of cheese. I have felt all grown up when I can make my own phone calls and have no trouble getting across my message because I actually KNOW the language, and I could send text messages with all my friends via cell. How amazing isn’t that? And I have learned a lot of Japanese, of course. Bit by bit, things are falling into place, and this fall I read my first novel in Japanese. I have learned to love the feeling of being so busy that your head is spinning and you are forgetting what day it is – is actually more exciting than stressful.
I can feel that something is lacking despite the tight schedule, I want to pick up a camera and take lots and lots of pictures, I want to draw and paint and cut paper into a million pieces and make food from scratch and put on nail polish and tweeze my eyebrows and put on makeup and shave my legs and sort my bookcase and go running and read books for fun and create pretty things. My mind is bursting over with ideas, but I have no time. Right now I have a small notebook, and I am writing it all down, and once I ace these exams, I have plenty of ideas to keep me occupied.
I had my first exam today. It went fine. I have three more to go in the next two weeks. And I guess what I am trying to say is:
Don’t forget about me!
I will be back within a month.
Promise.
After I wrote my last entry about things, and how I do not feel such attachment to things anymore, I looked in my jewelry box. I’ve had this thing forever, I can no longer remember who I got it from or just when, but I always loved this box and kept it in storage when I moved to Japan. It is like a time-stamp, I stopped filling up this box with even more new things about 2 – 3 years ago, and opening it up again I found all these precious little things I used to love. Not ready to wear them any time soon, but at least they looked sparkly in pictures.
I was browsing modcloth (all items above are from modcloth.com) just to look around, try to get some inspiration, try to see if anything tickled my fancy. I encountered two problems.
1. I see things I think are cute, but the styles of the things are all over the place (as you can see from the above collection). It is like I have lost any kind of direction in personal style, and mix and matching stuff like this doesn’t always work. It is hard to wear a classy mad-men type of dress and combine it with a pug-party-ring. I don’t know what happened to my sense of taste (or lack thereof), but god, I can not seem to settle for any sort of style. And I have been feeling, maybe for the past two years or so, that I am getting to old for quite a few styles, and I feel that I need to grow up and not dress like a teenager anymore. And I am kind of stumped, because I still come across things that glitters like god and go “ooo! I want that!” even though the item does not match a single thing in my mostly black closet. So – how do you guys solve this? Settle for a style and keep to it?
2. The second “problem” I encountered is not really a problem; I do not feel inclined to actually buy things anymore. I look at things, think they are cute, but I don’t feel that yearning or longing for all sorts of items like I did when I was younger. I can easily walk into several clothing stores now, look through their collections, conclude that yes, certain garments are pretty, but I don’t feel like they are pretty enough to spend my money on them. After I have moved back and forth to Japan, I do not want to carry a shitload of clothes and whatnot with me, and right now I am living in a 5 square meter room, and I simply do not have enough space to keep a huge wardrobe. And it feels strangely liberating. Owning fewer things, getting by fine with fewer things. When I was younger I would keep closet upon closet filled to the brim, but going through old clothes now, I realize that most of the items are unnecessary, so I have thrown most of them away. And you can do it as well! Clean out your closet, and just throw out all the old junk you are never going to wear again. There is no point in letting things clutter up your life. That being said – I miss that feeling of really falling head over heels in love with items. The only thing I have truly been wanting to buy all year was a pair of JC shoes. What do you do to get excited over items? Winter is coming, and I lack a couple of base garments, but I can not bring myself to go out and look for them, because most things are just so utterly uniteresting to me.
Aaahhh. A little over a month, and I can go back home. These past months have gone by so quickly, and quite frankly I am still not sure how I will be able to get everything done in time, but things have a magical way of working themselves out. Fingers crossed. I can not wait to actually have views like this a short train ride from my apartment again.
I don’t think I ever showed any pictures from Disneyland the last time I went? That time around I didn’t bring my camera, so all I have is a couple of keitai-pictures, but looking at them, I miss Japan. I wouldn’t recommend anyone going to Tokyo Disneyland for the rides, because the lines are insane, but if you like to take pictures, bring a camera and ignore all the rides and spoiled brats, and you will be fine 🙂
